If you were to ask me the top five reasons why I feel like a failing pastor I would say:
- People don’t come to my church; even “regulars” don’t come very “regular.”
- The testimony of the families in our church is, shall we say, sub-par.
- I never feel entirely sure what I’m supposed to do with people.
- Surely if I were succeeding I would not be crying over this church as much as I do.
- Minuscule levels of what is termed “successful evangelism” are taking place.
I’ve heard people confirm my failure in regard to these issues. Many happy pastors would immediately condemn my pastoring based on these five things, (probably with the exception of the crying thing because that sounds very spiritual and “should be that way,” but you probably don’t fully understand the source of those tears, which is mostly just complete pain and agony rather than intercession).
I’ve heard many non-pastors say in relation to these things, “You should quit then.” Perhaps, but these same people will trot out the “Nothing worthwhile is every easy” line if I dare discuss quitting.